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DO IT 

DO IT 

DO IT

DO IT

I’M GAY.

I can’t live in regret, just because I have nothing to regret about.
I’ve been through a love lost and I’m fine with that.
I know what love felt like, and I can’t complain just because that was the best experience.
I know that love does exist, and whether if it’s with you or anyone else
I’ll find it or I’d come to me without expectation.

I’m happy with where I stand today. 

Making a new Tumblr, just cause this one doesn’t have any significance to me anymore.

February 17, 2011.
No one really understands how excited I am.
I’ve missed every show they have played in the city.
I missed them at Warped Tour.
And they have been my favorite band for years.
Since their EP, and tonight will be the night where I get to say
”I saw my favorite band perform”  

Currently: Excited. :) 

this heavy hearted.
I feel like I’ve been completely erased from the world.
Erased from your life, and I feel extremely lonely.
Yeah, I’m having one of the most fucked up week ever.
And all I want is one thing, not even a thing just a person.

I’m trying not to show anyone my emotions because then I’d feel weak.
But I can’t help it, And to be honest I hate that I have to hide what I feel.
I hate that I cry this much when everything goes wrong,
and I hate that I’m here at school typing all this down when in reality
I feel it doesn’t have much significance.

I hate that I come across as a bitch, because in reality I have the biggest heart.
I care about everyone and everything as much as I say I don’t.
I wish I can go to anyone with my problems in hopes that they would help me
in anyway shape or form.

But today is the start of a new day right?
Maybe it’d be different then it has been since Saturday.
Maybe I’ll crack the smile I’ve been wanting to crack.
Maybe I get to speak to the one person that really matters most to me.
Maybe everything will get better from this day forward.

Maybe, right?